Sir and i had a long conversation last night ~ not about D/s, just about other stuff. We’ve both been so busy lately that it’s rare for us to sit down and fully attend to each other. And maybe that’s been part of my problem.
It was good to share my thoughts and feelings with Him.
‘Nilla left a brilliant comment on my last post, about having need to pull back from watching the news and so on after 9/11 because she was swamped with the misery. i love that she shared her story here. And of course she’s right. That’s one way ~ a good way ~ to deal with trauma overload.
i need a different way, because part of my job is to deal with trauma. So i can pull back from Facebook (although at some point i’m going to need to know about a lot of painful things that i see there too.) But i can’t pull back from other people’s trauma because that’s a huge part of what i do. It would be like telling a tight-rope walker who’s having trouble with heights just to keep close to the ground. Sure, she could do it, but it would require a career change.
So i need to be able to let other people’s trauma flow through me.
Just talking to Sir really helps.