I’m supposed to go to a dinner tonight – it’s a volunteer appreciation thing. i don’t want to go. But i said i would. So i guess i will.
i went to the zoo today, just to walk and relax. i don’t know why i thought that was a good idea. The animals made me sad, all cooped up and hot and bored. The happy children reminded me of mine, and reminded me that i will have 2 grandkids i can’t take to the zoo. (Because it’s really important that they get to see the unhappy animals, right? 🙂 )
Whine, whine, wine… But really. i am just frigging depressed. i can tell because everything is sad. And i know that for real, NOT everything is sad.
It’s ok to be sad. But maybe i haven’t been doing the things that i know are helpful.
Ok. Fine. There’s no reason to think that some kink thing is going to happen that will make me feel better. It’s up to me. You know, life is what it is. Trying to act like it’s something different is just not helpful.
Guess i’d better get busy taking care of myself. But later, maybe tomorrow, i’m going to do a fantasy about what i wish would happen…
P.S. i know i need to answer comments too. If i were a better person, i would have already done that. Can’t tell you how much i appreciate them.