So, um, i have rules. More specifically, i have a bedtime rule.
i have to get ready for bed, and then come get Him to put me to bed. i have to ask him “may i go to bed, please, Sir.”
Last night, He said “No,” and made me sit on the floor at His feet.
That was after He wouldn’t let me go take a shower because He was talking to me. He does that all the time, i’ll say, “ok, i’m gonna go get ready for bed,” and He just keeps talking, or He’ll ask me a question, so i don’t leave. But last night, He actually caught my leg between his legs so i couldn’t move – He just did it casually, but when i said,
“i’m going to go take a shower,” and He didn’t move His legs, and i said, “Um, i can’t move unless you let my leg go,”
Then He laughed and said, “Do you think I don’t know that? You’re not going anywhere.”
And i thought, “O. But ~ O. i guess, um, i guess maybe i don’t pay attention enough? Maybe He really does Dom me in subtle ways? And i just take it for granted, and don’t recognize it because i’m used to it?”
And maybe that’s so, because when He started talking about tying me to the bed, more than He already does, which is just a rope around my ankle, although sometimes He ties my ankles together too, well, He was asking me how long i thought i could sleep in one position, because sometimes if you can’t move, it gets real uncomfortable, and did i think i could be held still for 3 or 4 hours?
And i thought, o, hmmm, some people might think this conversation is a bit nuts, why would i let Him tie me up so i can’t move? And i can remember a time that would have freaked me out.
So maybe He’s much more subtly dominant than i realize, and maybe i just haven’t been paying enough attention. But He wasn’t a bit subtle last night.
He told me to take my shower and then put on one of the white shirts with buttons, and come let Him know when i was ready for bed. And that was when He said, “No,” and made me sit on the floor by His feet ~ which felt so good, and i got to put my head on His thigh, and He stroked my hair, and ~~ yeah. It was just what i needed.
Then He ~ o, He led me to the hallway and made me stand with my head against the wall and He spanked me – but just one ass cheek. At last, He led me to bed ~ and ~
Then He tortured my nipples – punishing me a couple of times for not responding appropriately to questions with a really painful pinch. He smacked my ass until it was stinging and tender, managing eventually to even up the pain in both cheeks…
and even took a picture of it. No, i’m not posting it here. You know, unless He tells me to.
He says that when i let Him know how much i need D/s, it frees Him to act on His desires. i guess i’ll have to tell Him more often…
Ok, and thank youall for putting up with me on this emotional roller coaster, like a bizarre game of “He Doms me, He Doms me not…”